as if things dont get any worse for me  one of my close friends the first girl i ever fell in love with tiffannie  has this boyfriend  they been together afew months  he is a druggy he does ice weed and afew other things and afew weeks ago he claimed he was getting clean for her and that he was going to go to rehabb outta state turns out he didnt go to rehabb he sat around drinking beer and he cheated on her twice  he came back and broke up with her which was sad for her but a good thing over all since he is a asshole and no one in her family likes him  but i call her 2 night because i was gonna try to go over there this weekend and guess what there back together now normaly i wouldnt be so mad but he is effecting her school work and he is doing nothing but hurting her and she deserves alot better  so i freaked out and asked her what happend and she was like  well he came over to his friends house where she had been waiting for him and blah blah blah they got back together for afew hours she cried and told him she couldnt trust him so she broke up with him he made all this bullshit up i will never cheat again baby blah blah blah  so i kept trying to talk to her about it and she wouldnt say a word and then she hung up on me which just made me that much madder so i called and talked to her mom which when me and her were dateing i thought she didnt like me turns out i am the only guy tiffannie has ever been with that her mom liked  anyways we told each other what we knew i knew that tiff skipped her class on firday and saturday because of the brake up and what not and the first 6 werks she wasnt suposed to miss one day but she has missed like 3 or 4 i think  and its messed up and her mom told me that tiff tried to buy weed for him and i fliped i was like are u fucking kidding me what was she thinking  what if the guy was a undercover cop she would be in deep shit and yes i said all this to her mom i was so angery   but after me and her mom talked for a solid hour  tiff came home and we got off the phone her mom tried to set some new rules about them dating and what not and tiff got upset and left and drove to his house and as luck would have it tiffs sister remembered where his house was so her mom and her sister went and confronted both of them  infront of his house and her mom flat out told him that he was not good for her and that she isnt gonna tell her she cant see him but tiff has to be home every night at the same time or there will be alot of shit that will go down and that he needs to clean up his act and alot of other stuff  i am just so freaking up set that her infacutation with this guy  is this strong  and that she is hurting her future by being with him and she is going to school for her dream job yet she is throwing it away for a asshole i love her to death but i yelled at her and i regret it i never once yelled at her since i known her  but she is being stupid and she is a smart girl but she dosnt want to let go and it kills me to see her with him because he treates her like shit and she just takes it like its nothing  and there isnt anything i can do

also i dont need anyones opinions on the subject  i have already have had enough of those and i would like to beat them in the fast for it  this is just right now the current mess and i feel that i have done what i needed to do even if that does include looseing the friend ship over what i told her mom or otherwise what i told her  i know my actions and at the time its what i felt i needed to do so people telling me i handled it wrong or i shouldnt gotten involved or anything along those lines can kiss my ass because i know 95% of people would do what i did or close to it if it was someone in there family that was having these problems and didnt want to see them get hurt more or possibly be fucking up there life i am done i was gonna try to stay awake the rest of the day but a stupid person with there stupid opinion put me in a bad mood

well this week was messed up went and saw sin city with ian and shay  on my way to my grandmas a suv tried to make me crash into this truck i think they knew each other it was messed up the suv got so close i couldnt see his tires and after i got away the suv tried to follow me it was a messed up tuesday then since then everytime i call to try to get my ticket taken care of  the stupid person isnt there!!! that has been my week it sucks hopfuly the party tomorrow night will fix this crapy week

almost everything u would ever need to know about me

i am just bored its 2:45 in the morning and i am dead tired but most normal people would go to sleep... well i am not normal so we can skip that

first off i am 19 5'8  about 160 pounds  i am mostly scottish and irish  i have issues with how i look i am not that confident i know i am a good guy and i deserve someone good just the fact of having to go out and meet people i am shy  i dont like it to much  i have bad teeth its a touchy subject with me  but its true there god awful i want to get them all fixed get knocked out all done wake up have nice teeth since i am mostly scottish and what not my teeth just bad  not that i didnt try to take care of them not that i didnt want them to be nice just they are bad and i hate it  umm i used to be a heavy gamer not so much anymore now i just sleep and watch movies  i put my family and friends before anyone else and i care about my family very much  and my friends are part of my family  umm i live at home i moved out about a year and a half ago but i moved back when my granddad started having heart problems he is still with us but its a slow decline but he is my father more then my real dad is so i am here as much as i can above anything else i want to be happy find someone  care for them have it be something that never ends have a family and be a grate dad i am religious but not really main stream religion i think there to full of them selfs to understand what life is about  church is just another building made of stone what is important is how everyone treats each other and what they do with there time while there here  i love kids and i take care of my friend ians kid alot he might as well be my nephew i am around him enough  every tuesday i go see a movie with my grandma  she is getting def so i have to do all the talking since she cant hear  i hang out with my friends alot  i never felt like my life was made to do something amazing while i am here but i know that my kids will do some amazing things and i think my only reason for being here is to bring them into the world sounds weird i know but its how i feel and i will def be a protective dad answer the door with a shot gun and such i want to do a job that i love doing not just some job i do to get money  i am horrible at spelling and reading but amazing at math but hate it  i view life like this respect people till they give u a reason to not respect them and i am a honest person i dont lie there is no point anyone that gives me the respect of honestly asking me a quesiton i will respect them and honestly answer them  i am lazy by birth but if i feel something is wroth it i will work my self to the bone to get it taken care of  if i could live anywhere it would be the last budist kingdom where they dont have money and they rate how much the country grosses by how happy everyone is  i am a peacful person and care alot and to anything for someone i care for i hate fighting or anything like that things are better fix by talking not screaming and yelling  thats about all i can think of plus i am about 2 secs from passing out so i might add on later

well after alot of thought on my current and always problematic subject i have found the answers to what my questions have been and i dont care anymore i am gonna give 100% and to the best i can to do what will stop these feelings of going down hill stop i dont care how hard or long it takes to do what things i have in mind  but there there and they are gonna get done monday me and ian are going job hunting for me  my toe split open a little last night but its ok  i am gonna start working out again either 2 night or tomarrow  i made my stomach look better in like a week i have till the greenday concert at the latest to have everything i have planed put into motion if it is gonna work i can only hope i am not wrong